I know that I already wrote a blog today but that one seemed rushed and short to me. One of my goals is to slow down and really focus on the important things in my life. I am a very blessed person and wanted to take a moment to talk about all those little blessings.
Hubbins is sweet, kind and loving. Our relationship has certainly had its rough patches but at the end of the day I find my strength with him. I don't tell him often enough and certainly don't show it, but on my worst days I have hope and light because I know that soon enough I will be in his arms. This is the one place were the world seem calm and at peace.
Then there are our two breath taking little girls. They truly are gifts from God. I am not sure I will ever feel deserving of the blessing they have had on my life. Everyday their endless love encourages me to be my best. Ladybug is so creative and smart with an imagination greater than any author or artist. She paints our lives and world bright vibrant colors and keeps everyday an adventure. And then my little Giraffe, oh how I've waited to see your personality. To seethe kind of girl you would be. Now that it is starting to appear I can see that like your sister your personality had strong qualities of love and caring. Though unlike your sister who seems to burst with light you sparkle. You two are my priceless jewels, my gifts touched by angels. And teach me to embrace the little things. To take each moment and hold it close. My heart bursts every time you guys say "I love you."
My little family is my haven. They keep me saw and level. Though they are not my only blessings. I am over joyed to have my large loud family to keep me on my toes and to shove me down a straight-ish path. My friends (the few close ones that I keep near to my heart) except me and rejoice in my strangeness. They keep my life filled with laughter and allow a reprieve from the day to day woes. Each person in my life has helped shape me and give me perspective on the things that are important. I am a blessed girl and thank God everyday for each of you! Thank you for blessing my life!
Tuesday, September 25, 2012
Its been a crazy couple of weeks filled with lots of fun! With Ladybug in preschool, Beans and I are left spending the day running errands, coloring and playing! I love all the little moments that I get to be with her! Its such a fun stage watching her personality take form and the snuggles aren't bad either! (she is snuggled up with me right now, actually.) I miss my Ladybug though. I am constantly wondering what she is doing, learning, and who is she friends with..... I hang on to her every word as she tells me about her day after school on the way to the park.
This last weekend, we went to the Corn maze with my brother and his family. It was the best time and filled with so much laughter and joy. There is nothing more wonderful than seeing how happy my brother and nephews are. I am so thankful for his fiance for all of that. She is wonderful and caring. She loves them all so unconditionally and brings out the best. Congrats to both my brother and soon to be sister-in-law!!!!!
Well, I am off again. Here are a few pics from the last couple of weeks and I hope everyone is having a great Sept.
Wednesday, September 19, 2012
These three days a week are my enemy it feel like lately. They are days filled with running around, cleaning, naps, school and work.They are a black hole of responsibilities and time. I feel like I don't get nearly enough time with my family, especially my little Ladybug. Now that she is in preschool four hours Mon-Fri these first few days of the week are torture because I miss out on so much time with my baby girl, who is growing like crazy and learning something new everyday. On the plus side, I hope to start volunteering on Mondays or Tuesdays which will allow me to be in the classroom with her and helping her in this new stage. So that only leaves two dreaded days of the week.....Boy, do I sound like a spoiled toddler today! I am sorry for that, and I do know that I am a lucky mommy because I get four blessed days off to be Mommy and love on the girls. I also know that not every parent is as lucky as I am to get that time with their kids. So maybe I should focus on this instead of the three bedtimes I miss out on or the dinners I cant be at. I should embrace the mornings filled with giggles and dancing. The school pick ups filled with excitement and wonder, of stories ready to be told of a day filled with adventures. My new goal is to look for the bright side, to focus on the happy moments and the time I get to spend with my wonderful little family!
Thursday, September 13, 2012
The last three days have gone by in a blur of errands, works and school. They have been late nights with me getting off at 11, working out and arriving home sometime around midnight. So, it hasn't been the easiest to wake up and be all sunshines and smiles. However, this morning was perfect. Some how both girls wound up in our little queen sized bed. This normally means that one or both parents get booted out. However, this morning I got woken up by my two wonderful little girls giggling and playing peek-a-boo!!! It was the perfect start to my day and so far has kept me in a wonderful mood!!! I love being mommy to blondes with redhead attitudes.
Tuesday, September 11, 2012
Monday, September 10, 2012
Where did all the time go? That seems to be a typical question for parents. Its as though little gremilins sneak into the house at night and spin the clock hands forcing time to move at the speed of light. Making childhoods shrink to moments shorter that the blink of an eye. As a mom, I've always tried to embrace each stage of my kids' lives, take too many pictures (if there can be too many,) and live in each moment. I look fondly on the memories and mile stones they've made, while seeing the excitement the future holds. That being said, for the first time, I truly wish I could pause life and enjoy the littleness just a little longer.
Ladybug started school today. It was her first day of preschool and although she has many more years to go, I am so sad to see her come to this chapter in her life. The pride and excitment seems to pour out of her in the purest rays of sunlight. And even though it is only her first day and I seem to hold my breath the four hours she isnt with me, I know this is the right choice for her. She has so much potential and an unending love of learning. I just cant believe she is here, old enough and ready to make this first step on her own adventure. I know that I wont always be a leading role in her story and she has to be able to grow and write her own path, but it is one of the hardest things I can do as a mother. I am left praying I have taught her to be a good and loving person. I have instilled the confidence in herself and ablities she will need.
She is also now a dancing queen. She went to her first dance class this past Saturday and is a natural. Though I am not surprised, she was dancing to the rhythm even when I was pregnant with her. Though it is yet another mile stone this week that is filled with mixed emotions, I am delighted to see her take such love in something that I love as well.
I am a very proud mommy this week and excited for the fun this year will bring. My see so much potential in my little girl and cant wait for the new memories we will make. But I am sad to see the toddler chapter of her life being to close as she opens the next one.......