Raising Blondes with Redhead Attitude

Raising Blondes with Redhead Attitude

Wednesday, December 30, 2015

We survived 2015

I've sat down to write a post about this last year so many times over the last month, and I simply haven't been able to finish. I am still overwhelmed and processing the emotions that came with hurricane 2015. Now that we are two days away from a new year, I feel as though I can breath a sigh of relief. We survived, we may have scars to remind of us all the battles won and lost. 
We celebrated the birth of our beautiful Button; and went through the most heart wrenching experience watching our fresh little bundle fight for life in the NICU. She continued to surprise us with her feisty fighting spirit in and out of the hospital. She survived the NICU and has grown into a silly sweet and feisty almost one year old. Our little family survived the most difficult times. Though it's still hard for me to look back on those weeks or to really let myself deal with all the pain, sorrow and joy that comes with it, the experience strengthened Hubbins and me. It gave me strength to handle the following months. 
We welcomed two handsome nephews, who have stolen my heart. Even with all the scares and complications both my sisters came through healthy. Our nephews are such bright shinny stars in the grey cloud filled 2015. 
We also said goodbye to one of the most influential people in my life. Each day I think about my grandmother and wish for one more card game. I can hear her laughter when Button is her silly cheeky self. Or think of her advice when helping our big girls with a problem. I hear her jokes, stories, venting and awesome accent each day.
 Her passing was sandwiched between Button's hospital stays and even now I haven't fully mourned such an importance loss. I was so overwhelmed that for a time, I simply had to shut off those emotions. I had to except God's guidance, and the strength from family, friends and faith. 
We moved in a rush and by God's grace;  said "see you later" to great friends, had fights, made up and dealt with a huge marital pot hole. Most importantly, we survived. 
We survived despite the obstacles still laid out ahead. We are ready to fight along side family to right a tragic wrong. But that is a battle for 2016 and we will survive. I believe that. I have hope. 
God has seen us through one of our toughest years and provided so many blessings. The greatest being, our sweet little family unit. We will welcome the new year snuggled together, playing together and loving. We will welcome 2016 as a strong, blessed family with hope for 365 possibilities. 

Monday, December 28, 2015

My jumbled thoughts of Christmas 2015

This years Christmas was much needed. We all needed to feel a little more festive and defiantly a good dollop of merry. So we packed the week full of fun and are now in a post Christmas/pre New Years hangover. We are embracing the exploded house and snuggles. We are giving in to cookies for breakfast and staying up a little late. We all have a week off to enjoy family time and tackle the big tasks so for now, we are staying in the post holiday snuggle zone. 
This year's Christmas was extra magical since it was the first with our completed little family. And I loved seeing the holiday through the eyes of each of our girls. Aidan is really into Santa, giving and the whole spirit of the holiday. She is old enough to start understanding what is really happening and why it is so important, but still young enough to relish all the magic that this time of year holds. She stayed up late to see every single light on each Christmas gingerbread house we drove by. She carefully selected thoughtful gifts for each of her sisters and loved helping shop for everyone else. 
Jozy is just emerging into full on Santa magic zone. She embraced each adventure, magical moment, and gift with crazy amounts of enthusiasm. There was a ton of "OH I ALWAYS WANTED THIS!" being shouted with glee as she unwrapped every present. She drove into Christmas head first and didn't come up for air in true elf fashion. Then we have little Button. This was her first Christmas and she loved everything about it. She even grudgingly decided to love Santa for her first visit to see him. She would take all the ornaments she could reach off the tree, jiggle each bell for hours and lay under the twinkly lights in pure holiday bliss. Our girl was all Christmas all the time. She saw the wonder in everything and loved each second. I am a little sad to take the tree down and say goodbye to her love of it. 

Christmas eve day was spend in PJ's being lazy with the girls. We did a tree craft, watched movies and the girls got to open their ornaments. Ladybug was so patient and helped Button with hers. This is one of my favorite traditions and I loved picking out special ornaments for each little love this year. A bird for our animal lover, who spends hours watching the birds. A giraffe for our little giraffe. And a jiggle bell for our little joy.

That evening we headed out to my dad's for a lot of family fun. It was loud, hectic, crazy emotional, and perfect. There was love and magic everywhere you looked. There was forgiveness, acceptance, friendships growing stronger, love happening, laughter ringing out and just the perfect hohoho-ness.

I loved seeing my dad and brothers bonding. I loved hearing them laugh together and watching the pride my dad has for each of them. I loved screaming "Merry Christmas" to my oldest brother, who couldn't be there, in hopes that our holiday love would travel through the phone waves to him in CA. I imagine his smile at knowing he is still in all our thoughts and hearts.
I adored watching the cousins play together and except each other in the way only family can. I missed my other nieces and nephews dearly, but loved seeing these guys. I loved imagining where they will be in five years, 10 years and how cool their bond will be then. I truly hope our girls love each other as much as I love my sister. One of my favorite things is watching my sister's kids and our girls play together. To know that even when we don't see each other nearly enough, their friendships pick up flawlessly.
I loved the tradition on a hay ride to look at lights and knowing how much Papa and Button love each other. I loved hearing the carols at Great grandma and grandpa's. I loved seeing the smiles spread and the grateful hearts get filled back up.
I loved that this little nugget refused to sleep so Santa could visit. She fights sleep like a prize fighter in the ring.

Christmas was spent at home with my in laws and later my dad, step mom and brother. It was quieter, peaceful and had a nice sweet light to it.

The girls were spoiled but grateful. They were so excited and filled with joy. I loved each surprised delighted expression.

We ended our Christmas as a family wrapped up in love, laughter and exhausted. We played games, watched the girls love on each other and just embraced it all. I hope you all had as merry a Christmas!

Saturday, December 26, 2015


My word for 2016 is simplicity! 2015 was hard, heartbreaking and exhausting. The year took a huge toll on all of us and we aren't even through with the rough times. We survived though. We changed, we grew and we learned how strong we all are. 
Heading into 2016, I am ready for a simpler year. I am ready to slow down, take a step back and breath deep. We chose to stay home with the girls this year. We let them pick a fun activity, watched fireworks, played games and cuddled close. It was perfection. It was the perfect dose of calm to end a chaotic year. It was a great transition to a simpler life. 
I am ready to simplify my heart, mind and soul. I am ready to purge things and create breathing space. I am ready to slow down and really focus on what is important. Faith, family and love are my priorities. 
I am excited to see where 2016 leads us and weary of the unknown that it holds.  I am focusing on what I can control.  A big thing is really looking at my life, my goals, my dreams and all the inbetweens. I hope to find contentment in what we have now and getting rid of the things that don't bring joy to my life. 
That's really what it boils down to, a simple life filled with things and people that only bring me happiness! 

Thursday, December 24, 2015

Santa visit 2015

We were so blessed this year to get to do an amazing photo shoot with VLS photography and Santa. Santa was perfect and the girls had a wonderful time   Even Button loved Santa. If you have small kids, I strongly recommend using a professional photographer and studio to get pictures with Santa.

Wednesday, December 23, 2015

Button 11month update

It's so strange that you are already 11months! This year has gone by insanely fast and we are now entering you last month as a baby. You are getting so smart and defiantly love getting into mischief. You have the best smile and personality. You also give the most amazing baby bear hugs when I pick you up. It's my favorite thing you've learned to do this month. You grab on tight and squeeze! Then you just hold on as tight as you can. It's wonderful. You are getting so big so fast, baby girl! 

Height: 29ins
Weight: 18lbs 6oz
Hair/Eyes: You still have the most beautiful gray blue eyes and your hair is more strawberry blonde than anything. 
Sleep: Your sleeping hasn't changed much. 
Food: You are a greater eater and love everything you can reach. We are weaning you off formula and you still haven't decided if you like milk yet. But otherwise you are awesome with trying new foods. 
Favorites: You are loving all things Christmas! The lights, the presents, the music... Jiggle bells are your very favorite though. You can sit and play with them for hours. 
Dislikes: There isn't much that you dislike. Mostly anything that's in your way or slows you down. You also don't like being alone, even if you just think you are. 
Milestones: You are standing on your own and love to dance. You also have started singing while playing the drums on anything you can reach. Music is defiantly a favorite for you and it's been so fun watching you make up your own. You are also speaking like crazy. You can now say "mama," "dada," "Yaya," "papa," "baba(bottle)," "au(aunt)," "du(done)," and a few others. It's so cool to see you talking and learning. You love to explore your world and figure out how things work. You also took a little step, but otherwise you just don't seem interested in walking on your own. 

Monday, December 14, 2015

A weekend for the record books

This weekend we celebrated in our epic family way. There were birthday surprises, early Christmas fun, adults embracing their inner kid, laughter, and oh so much love. This weekend the family celebrated! It was needed in a life depending way, this celebration. We needed to come together, to gather close and to do what we do best, love.
The last few weeks have been hard, heck 2015 has been hard, but a part of our family got devastating news. The kind where you can literally feel your heart crack and you don't know what to do. We all felt the shock, the sorrow and the pain. Its news that can, that WILL be fixed. I, we have to believe that's the case. We have to cling tightly to the hope and knowledge that the fight isn't over. So each day we do and each day we try our hardest to bring the love to the family that needs it the most. My dad has always said, "Our family does two things better than anyone else, love and fight." We don't always see eye to eye, and more often than not we often forget the importance of family. But when its needed, really needed, we join forces, clasp hands in a very whoville manner, and we fight for our loved ones. 
But I digress, that is a topic for a different post. A post that will be coming because I have so many emotions, words, thoughts, and more ramming to get out. So, yes I will get back to that on another day. However, today I want to talk about the joy of family, the healing powers of laughter and the strength that comes with love. I took a step back this weekend and I got to see my brothers come together to be there without pause for one another. I saw tiny miracles occur through out the weekend, and though we had rough moments, small fights, there was a special kind of magic taking place. 
I could see it when all the cousins played together and added an extra layer of protection to their life long friendships. It vibrated in humming waves as we all gathered over a silly game and laughter rang out. You could feel it in the quiet happy smiles that have been so rare lately. 
We had presents galore and the kids were of course spoiled, but Grandpa joined in and smiled the whole time. The kids said thank you with true sincerity, and my siblings gave more than gifts. They gave understanding and a simple nod of we got you. I will remember this weekend and have tucked it away in the box marked "open when you need a reminder." Because this weekend will be a reminder that even in the darkest, suckiest moments, family fights for you. That when you don't think you can get through you simply have to remember two things. 1. Things get better than always do, getting there is just the hard part. 2. Let your family love you and fight with you.